Monday, November 17, 2008

Who AM i?

This question is quite commonplace but still baffles me at times.I remember the first time I was asked this question at some workshop I had joined .I was dumbstruck not at the asking of such a question but because it had never occured to me that after being on this planet since last 18 years, I still could'nt identify myself or rather know myself.So I started searching for answers to this question.Today at 21, though I have got partial answers , I am still in the process of learning myself.I have pondered over a lot of IFS and BUTS ....Whys and Why nots..Each day I learn something about myself.When I was in secondary school,I was quite reserved and an introvert.Perhaps I was suffering from the disease of inferiority complex but nevertheless I was ambitious.I always strived to be the best,be it at basketball or at tennis or in academics. Gradually I gained confidence in myself which was brought through accomplishment in my academic life when I crossed the 90% mark in the class 10 board examinations.Then I started speaking with people.I tried to be open and come out of myself.I earned a scholarship in std. 11 for academic excellence and also participated in some school fests.The best year of my school life was the last year itself when I was the founder member of the organizing committee of the school festival of my school.Thereafter I became a different person altogether.I was comfortable among strangers. i could speak freely with friends and acquaintances.Then after school I decided to study for cat and started preparing for it quite early than required, but somehow I could'nt pull it off.I could just manage a meagre 96.25 %ile and missed xlri by a margin.(99.2%ile).Desperate todo well in cat 2009, I plan to not let anything come in my way.I am sure I can bell next year.